"Are you running away, or are you running towards something, Rebekah?"

Immediately, my response was a stern, 'TOWARDS!'

Last night my friend Claude and I went out to dinner, beans and oily rice wasn't going to cut it again for dinner, for either of us. We went to a restraunt called the AMBIENCE. This is our favorite place to eat, we both order the chef salad, which must be the best place for vegetables in all of Haiti! Downstairs is a bakery, where we always stop first to grab some fresh bread straight out of the stone oven...we've got the timing down to a tee now! (As far as when to arrive for the bread to come straight out of the stone fired oven.)

As we were eating dinner last night, Claude posed the previous question, quite randomly to me. Claude is much like I, very observant, and aware. This question made me think...all night long, even in my dreams...

It is no question to me, and I can respond immediatlty as to what I am running towards. It is Jesus.

This life, I do not understand.

Hatred, poverty, political unrest, injustice, and on and on...for a spirit that loves diversity as much as I, it is difficult to comprehend a mind-set behind such negative priorities, yet it is a daily reality all around me, especially here in Haiti.

I had made the decision a while back, that if I am going to continue to live in this world, there is quite obviously, (to me,) only one reason worth living for, Jesus Christ. With that said, if I am going to live for Jesus Christ, I cannot, and will not, go half-way. I must fulfill my destiny, carry out my purpose.

I am confident, although I do not understand it all, that God has a divine plan for my life. If he did not, I would not be here in the physical world now. There is no realistic reason I should be alive today, yet he continues to preserve my life.

I am running towards Jesus.

Being here in Haiti is very not fun at times, the culture, so different, the food- not my style, the living conditions poor, nevertheless, I am more comfortable here then I am in America, despite the many material conveniences I have in Alaska.

I much rather prefer to be uncomfortable and learn through the process, then to be comfortable and stagnant. I am very eager to develop myself, my character, personality. Being uncomfortable in the physical world is a sure-fire way to grow!

Today I went on a twenty-five minute ride up inhto the mountains to visit Paula, a woman who, roasts the coffee that we sell through the Trinity House. I got to experience how the Haitian woman who work for and with Paula, (who walk at minimum an hour away to get to work at Paula's house roasting the coffee) do their work, roasting both coffee and cocoa beans...(chocolate!)

This was a very cultural experience, and makes for appreciating the morning coffee that much more! This was a great experience a two and a half hour visit with her mother and she, a tour of the roasting process, (nothing like a tradtional Americanized machine-style roasting!) and about 20 minutes speaking the little Creole I know and taking photos of the woman who roast the coffee. Their spirits are so wise, so special.

This upcoming Sunday we are having celebration of the Trinity House 6 year anniversary. People will begin to show up this evening, extending through Sunday. We will have a dance performance by the Trinity House boys, a special prayer time, a football(soccer- for you Americans!) game, and some game time, 'chill out time,' as well as a formal lunch. Residents from the other homes, St. Josephs House in Port Au Prince, Wings of Hope in Fermathe as well as friends from the surrounding areas, will be attending as well. All in all we are expecting approach. 65 some people to join us! This will be quite a weekend!

Since I returned, the boys have been doing well. The home continues to improve and progress is taking place. Again, I am so honored to be a part of this project!

I have decided that I will remain in Haiti for the TOT1 training through Medical Ambassadors International which will take place in Cap Haitian. I will fly to Port Au Prince and up to Cap Haitian, the middle of next week. As soon as I am done with the training I will fly, if possible, San Francisco to meet up with my friend, victor in CA. This is just a thought though.

So, what am I running to?! JESUS. What makes me tick?! Jesus. Why do I keep living, because I know that God has a plan and purpose, even when I do not understand it, when item makes no sense at all to me...

I trust, I believe and I walk in what I know.